Marilyn and Thetan's little angel!
Revision today: Alexander rolled from back to tummy without any help this week: the 26th of June. And he ate a full bowl of rice cereal..2 tbl spoon of formula and 1 tbl spoon of rice cereal. He is ready for banana’s and real food next week:) He also had a fun time with grandpa yesterday.
Here are some of my favorite pictures of Alexander I have taken the last couple of months. We are in the the last week of Alexander’s 5th month. That means, officially Alexander will be hitting his 6th month July 1st. Alexander has been very busy!
Bath time is still his favorite time ( there is so much splashing that half the bath water is on me and the counter)
-He loves his walks in the stroller. We try to get out everyday…between the laundry, naps, and eating.
Driving- he falls asleep in the car in minutes without fail.
-Alexander smiles and interacts with us and everyone( loves to giggle and be tickled, loves to hold your face when looking at you, rubs your arm when holding.) People like to stop and say hello to Alexander. The elderly seem the most delighted. And Alexander is very comfortable being held by his grandparents.
-When I hold him he always wants to look in the direction I am going, or he will clasp is arms around my neck and move so he is looking at me in the eyes
-he just started eating rice cereal. I was horrible in the beginning, Nana showed me some tricks. Thetan was actually very successful and knew what to do..And as a team, Alexander finishes his bowl of rice cereal, with only half of it on his shirt. Alexander loves to eat and has no aversion to rice cereal-
from a mixture of 3 tbls of formula and 1 tbls of rice cereal… he gets about 1/8th a cup( see revisions on top of page..he ate a whole bowl…thicker consistency now)
-rolling!!! he rolls over and then the poor guy gets his arm stuck. We have to move his arm and then he is happy on his tummy. He loves to turn, he turns whenever we put him down. It is pretty funny!( see revisions..can roll by himself now)
-He is sitting up-but not by himself and leaning over.
- he like to vocalize and scream. This is a fun one. But when he is very comfortable and feeling happy, he will mumble, giggle, spit, and practice chatting it up.
- he says mumum
- poo- he seems to go in the morning, pee..all day long!!!
-He had his first mother’s day and father’s day. He made his parents very happy
-He has grown out of all his clothes (we have a new wardrobe now)
-He has started taking naps in the crib, but still ends up crying so we bring him into bed.
-Still breastfeeds every hour while he is awake
-His favorite toy is the apple his Great Aunt Carol gave him, but he loves to put things( everything) in his mouth. When he gets a toy..he gets enthralled, so when we take it away he actually cries and screams- not sure what to do about that…Are we spoiling him by giving it back when he cries and screams?
- he still goes to bed around 12..but he takes a few naps after his bath and lotion massage at 8:30pm. There have been a few magical moments where he slept 5 hours straight and went to bed at 10:30..we were in shock…wish it happened more
-He holds his bottle– and while eating..he likes to take the spoon( last night we bought a sippy cup…soon this weekend we will introduce water)
-he is a good crier. When he wakes up and when he wants something
-When I put my hands out he grabs them and likes to sit up.
-my favorite is he will giggle out loud when I am being silly with him.
-he smiles and giggles in his sleep and all the time during the day.
MOMMY AND ME TIME:
Doctors Appointment: 5/1/2012 12lbs teething upper left tooth.
GROWING: none of his clothes are fitting. clothes fit him like Huckle Berry Fin and the Incredible Hulk
Welcome ICLW Readers,
-make a list- making a list has always aloud me to see what is really going on..good or bad. Sometimes we get stuck in our head hearing the same negative line. so when you see the reality on paper, then it might give you a better perspective
-my first doctors appoint. Dr ICE. So many doctors do not have bed side manner. Some are amazing and show such compassion, yet some are cold, rude, and treat you like a piece of meat.
-being sad. Yes infertility can be really hard and emotionally exhausting. The sad moments came when mothers day came around, birthdays, going on facebook. This is a hard one for me now that I have Alexander. There is guilt sometimes when I am posting all my joys with Alexander. I remember the pain and jealousy I felt when signing onto facebook. At times I would just hide certain profiles so I would be able to lessen the hurt. And the announcements that others were pregnant would have be crying in the bathroom for an hour. Although I was happy for family and friends, I would be a mess for an hour.
-My first CD1( Cycle day one). I was so excited. My mom helped me get ready for such an event. We got beads and every night Thetan and I strung a bead for every day I received a shot. CD1 was the day I celebrated Aunt flow. This was a big deal because I had cried and became an emotional basket case for over a year every time she came because I was trying to conceive. So this was a new experience for me. At this time, I had been through the worst of it.
-April 1st was my first injection class. Strangely I was excited and happy. Yes. The denial of injecting myself 100 times was strong. But all I could think of was holding Alexander. And to this day, all the pain is gone when I look in my son’s eyes. And sometimes when I am singing or holding him, tears of joy just flow down my face.
- then came the side effects. April 4th my first injection! Menopause symptoms. yes….I would be shopping with friends and I would have the urge to rip my clothes off because I was steaming from the inside out. And yes…my poor husband would confess that I was a crazy person at this stage. the Lupron was very intense and made me act one minute happy and the next very very very angry. I think part of it was the hormones and the the rest was my own anger and frustration that I had to go through this process of IVF.
- reading about my injection of Lupron and Menupor was interesting. I remember feeling so scared. Crying in the beginning of each stage and especially those first few nights injecting hormones into my body. But in all reality those first injections of lupron and menupor was not painful..it was more my nerves getting the best of me. Thetan would get the medicine ready for me every night and then hand me the needle with medicine. It was not fun those first few nights where I had to inject myself twice. Painful..but it went really fast.
-cool website while going through IVF..of blood work: http://www.fertilityplus.org/faq/hormonelevels.html
- while I took the medicine the worst part of it all was going in every couple days and then every day where they check your ovaries and take your blood. Well..I fainted a couple times. That was not fun. That was when my body was not happy with me and I was at my emotional end. I was crying grumpy and really rethinking what I got myself into.
-HCG trigger shot point. Well..at this point I had grown my ovaries and I felt very full and I was walking around like a duck. Not fun..but Thetan found this strangely funny. Sleeping became hard too. In fact now that I am writing this I remember the doctors saying I had to be careful sleeping and not to toss and turn too much…HCG was a little painful…I really felt the burning with this one. But I remember using a purple heart bead that my friend Allison bought for me for this important day. It was the day before the doctors retrieved my eggs to make embryos.
- Retrieval done: results: I had 22 follicles, and 7 eggs came out. Here comes the fear that no embryos will come out of all this! but it worked: Out of my seven eggs, 6 were mature. Out of six mature eggs, they fertilized 4
-on to transfer day: and now onto progesterone shots. These are just inch and a half shots.( sarcasm) I had to ice my backside for 15 minutes to numb and then inject,( very scary long needle) then warm it with a heating pad. MY advice..do not numb..just take the injection. Oh yeah..after shot..you have to walk to make sure the progesterone which is mixed with oil gets all moved around and dissolved in your body. Or you will get a lump and you will have to massage deeply to dissolve it all. This happened to me a few times and after the first 5 times, I just stopped using ice..this remedied the problem.
oh tip after retrieval: drink a ton of water before and after retrieval. If you can drink gatorade, do it. you do not want OHSS. Also..after retrieval before transfer take advantage of using a heating pad where they removed your eggs. I think during those few days, I just laid down drinking water with a heating pad. It really helped.
-The dreaded two week wait. Out of all the shots, and emotional turmoil of months trying to conceive and failing, the two week wait was the most emotional time of the whole infertile experience. Thank god for the community I found. So helpful and supportive. I got lots of baby dust, and others wishing me luck. I would go to the blogging community every day and I would get solice in others stories and success.
- well.. the rest is history. It was all worth it..if I could give any advice please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Alexander has been keeping Thetan and myself very busy! I never new a baby was this much work. It is the most rewarding work I have ever done, but still..it is work. But within those moments of exhaustion and frustration, Alexander will giggle or give me a smile that just melts my heart. Let’s see what is this little guy doing?
1) he has found his hand..too cute..he just get real distracted when he noticed his hand and he just gets all big eye and inquisitive. He keeps on hitting himself with his hand though..hopefully this phase will change soon and his hand eye coordination will improve.
2) his clothes from newborn do not fit him anymore. I remember since he was a preemi..nothing fit him when he was born. All the clothes would fall off him, hats did not fit, the legs were always too big for him. Now…he needs all new clothes. He even fits in 3 month old shirts and pajamas.
3) he has started tummy time. Just tonight he lasted a few minutes and was doing so well.
4) he giggles and smiles all the time: he is very connected
5) he likes bath time…Thetan and I give him a bath togehter. Alexander sleeps really well after a warm bath
6) He puts Thetan( daddy) asleep everytime he holds him. And I must say Thetan is very good with Alexander. Alexander always calms down when he is held by his dad. Also, Thetan does a better job at swaddling then me.
1) sleep! The last two nights have been the worst. He got his 2 month vaccine and he has been tired and grumpy. Both nights he did not sleep until 4am. It has been real hard. but even before the vaccine, he does not go to bed till ate. Basically..he will sleep in our arms starting at 9pm..but he will not let us put him down so we can lay down and sleep until 3am. And even with that, he will not sleep for more than 20 minutes in his bassinet, so I have to hold him in bed to get him to sleep for 4 to 5 hours. Through out the day, he normally does not let us put him down for more than 20 minutes. Sometimes not at all.